Tuesday, July 5, 2011

Undiscovered...


He walked alone on the beach, not looking for a destination.
He saw a black hole ahead of him, and that was as far as he could see.
He had lost everything and everyone.
Lost his mind, heart and soul, lost his purpose in life.
For love had taken over him, and then, taken him down.
He didn't feel anything, not the wind gushing through his hair, not even the little pebbles hurting the sole of his feet.
Not even the sun cascading down his veins, as he walked out from the darkness.
He thought, This is it! This is how it's going to end!
He always thought he was doomed for deception and betrayal..
Because no matter how hard he'd tried, it'd never seemed to be enough.
And this time, it was his life at stake.
And as she drove a stake right through his faith, he felt his heart bleeding.
His heart, that once bled love, now bled endless disappointment, wrath and despair.
He just wished that this had been just a dream and that he'd wake up to see her face again.
He kept blinking his eyes to make it all go away, but all of that in vain.
He didn't know where to go, who to summon, where to seek aid for this pain.
His eyes were losing the vision to see hope again.
His hands were losing the grip of his future where he might hold someone's hand again.
His feet were losing the strength to tread the path of love one more time.
And his heart, well, she took it away with her cowardice, infidelity and pseudo passion.
He had to put an end to it, put an end to this agony.
He wanted to reach out to that black hole ahead of him and get lost in it forever.
Yes, that was it, his cul-de-sac!He knew what he had to do now. His purpose in life was death.

Just when he reached the porch of the devil's haven,
He ran into another soul, a soul dressed in white.
With lips redder than roses and tresses darker than the night.
Her eyes deeper than the ocean, and her smile, sweeter than a child's chuckle.
It was like a little pinch that took him out of his trance for a few moments.
He'd caused that angel to trip, one that took him a while to realize, but he apologized right away then.
He helped her get back on her feet, get the sand off her face, off her hands.
He apologized again, said, I'm sorry.
And just when he was about to walk away from her, she said, "Don't be, Life is too Short."
She giggled, looked back, got a glimpse of him, and then, faded away.
He started walking towards the blue waters.
He was on a mission. He started thinking again. Of how he'd loved and lost.
How he had let himself down.
As he proceeded to feel bitterness towards his existence.
He suddenly felt it. A tiny feeling of hope, an expectation, from himself.
Something had just changed, in him.
It was not her, maybe it was, but it was what she said.
For he didn't feel that apologetic anymore.
He didn't feel like giving up everything over one little drop of poison.
He saw himself drawing back his steps from the deadlock.
He thought of the angel. A sighing smile dawned upon his lips.
He realized. This is not the end, this is just the beginning, as his soul, his life are yet undiscovered.
He retreated, now wanting to reach a safe haven.
Wanting to make the most of this truncated life in him.
Somewhere, with the intentions of finding that girl, to thank her.
Was she real, or an angel, but one thing he knew, she was Godsend indeed.
And from what we heard of him, he lived.


It's funny how a stranger can turn your life upside down, and how another one can just make it alright.


Inspired by:
"Remember, Red, Hope is a good thing, maybe the best of things. And no good thing ever dies."  
These words were said by the character of Andy Dufresne in the movie The Shawshank Redemption, to his prison inmate, Redding (Red) with whom he had spent 20 years behind bars. Andy was admired for his never-say-never spirit, by everyone who came into contact with him in the prison. After all, he had the patience for 20 years, and the hope that he will get out of there one day. And, he did.










23 comments:

  1. sooo inspiring!!!<3

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  2. Amazing.... Can give any hopeless a big hope in life..:) Your words can make anybody live again who has given up on love and life. Muaaah:)

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  3. thanks so much sweetheart!!means a lot to me when you say this!!
    mwaaaah!:)

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  4. Painful.

    If you ask me honestly, I don't think I can comment on this, but still - It's very well written, very well thought. Gives that pinching feeling all along. I don't know why but ironically, I'm not finding words to write. May be I felt it all, may be I'm lost all over again, but yeah, I did feel good reading it.

    Good job! Keep writing. Want more from you and frequently.
    Cheers. :)

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  6. Hey Adhish, thanks so much!
    And, well, it is supposed to be painful, but only half way through. My intentions were to take the one, from darkness to light.
    I guess it didn't work that way on you, entirely.
    I hope the next one would be more convincing. :)

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  7. It's a beautiful piece, Payal. I have no complains whatsoever. I just want the best out of you with every new post. :)

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  8. well thank you, and complaints are welcomed here as well:)

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  9. there is no complaints becos we are not consumers, nor did we pay for this.
    cool stuff... looking to see more of original writing

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  10. super cool... love the end of it...

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  11. @BEND-rather criticism than complaints..
    anyway, thank you for giving this a read! :)

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  12. thank you anonymous..
    hope keeps one alive :)
    well, at least in this one. :)

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  13. i dont get it...i feel sad for author...coz its not the lost guy who s sad....its her...its you who s sad...atleast he lived with the words he heard..
    but the pain remains intact in authors heart...

    no emotions all comfortably numb to make others the same.

    nice try..but needs emotions not just words...!!!

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  14. @ahmedabad junction- well, it IS the author who has made the lost guy live with the words he'd heard.
    and thank you very much..i appreciate your outlook..but no personal comments please :)

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  15. dont get me wrong rose...
    its author dwelling mind which had made him live i agree..
    but the dwelling is not stable..
    so eventually author sways back to darkness..:(

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  16. Read it today again and loved it all the more (Also realized its been long, you wrote it 25 days ago)

    You are good, too good, but whom are you writing for? For the world? I never saw you as someone who would write to please, write for others duh I could understand till this blog was limited to few people who mattered, could relate to that desire of letting out, pouring out your soul, but now I amnt too sure.

    In any case just the thought of him staying alive should mean happiness to her, maybe that was the sole purpose of their meeting, her destiny? Or was there something more?

    ~There's no good, no bad, man's merely a set of compromises.

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  17. @The Madman-
    Thank you. Thanks very much. :)
    I have no answer for your question though.
    I really don't know who am I writing it for.
    May be for the world, or may be just for some in particular who'd relate to it, or may be just for letting myself know that I am good at something at least!hehe!:D

    And for one, this blog was never limited to a few people. When I made it public. I made it public for all. :)
    I wrote for myself I guess, but then, I thought I could use it.

    And well, she didn't have anything to do with him.
    She was just one of God's messenger.
    So that he does not to give up. And instead, just live it up.
    And a compromise arises when you think of it that way.
    Embrace it, and it wont be a compromise anymore.
    And if you still hate it, then just let go off of it. Fight it and erase it.

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  18. its beautiful the way you have described hope! truly inspiring. Indeed, hope does come to you in a fraction of a second amidst all the darkness, a little ray of hope, but that ray is so strong, it drives away all the darkness... love your words..!

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  19. I read this again tonight. Only this time, it put a smile on my face. I don't know, nor do I intend to know why, but it did. This night has already been beautiful for me, reading this puts a cherry on the cake.

    Payal, write more. Write more!

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