If Only..

If only we could change the way things transpire,

If only we could turn back time,

If only we could change the pathway of destiny,

If only we could be someone else, someone happier, for a while,

If only we could make those beautiful mistakes again,

If only we could save them from becoming mistakes,

If only we could matter more to some, and less to others,

If only we could hold on, to solely the good times and leave behind the worse,

If only we could look beyond regrets and disappointments,

If only we could walk on the ocean,

If only we could show our true selves,

If only we could live for ourselves, and stop with all the pretense,

If only we could love unconditionally, and if we do,

If only we could be loved unconditionally,

If only we could decode God,

If only we could become one,

If only we could be safe living on the edge,

If only we could live, and then live again.

Limbo

Life is indeed unfair at times.

It's sad to have faced this truth.

People, all around, can be so cynical, always looking for the worst in you.
I feel lost at times, so lost, that I can't find myself, even in a mirror's reflection.

The world says, Welcome Aboard, on this Ship of Misery.

Tragedies, one by one, will come knocking on your door.

I don't want to go there, I don't want to.

However, I can't stay in this sane state for long, either.

So I'm stuck in this Limbo.

I'm stuck in the middle of nowhere.
Perplexed are my intentions in here, in this room.

Where I sit all alone.

Wanting to be found at times, and at times, feeling content with being lost.
It's funny how one can feel lonely in this crowd,
It's even funnier how one can befriend loneliness.

Forever I am like this.
Lost and found from time to time.
I've seen so much, crashed and burned.
These wounds just keep getting deeper.
They keep making me colder.
I loved the way things were,
I loved the way I were!
I believe I am still the same, just a lot more different now.